imy

somehow,imy...

he asked me what is "imy" ?

i kept silence

i want him to search it and find the meaning by his own

because it's just meaningful for me to him

there are loaded of midterms & assignments haunting me

but others keep interrupting my mind

oww~the flying soul of mine

the body still in dead town

while 

the heart already in KL

i miss my queen-size bed

i miss mom-cooked food

and of-course

i miss him

seriously

his smile & his voice flooding in my mind

every single moment

especially in the nite

such a gloomy week

i felt so sorry

because

this coming weekend is much suffocating for me

you know why

because this will be the first weekend that i cant meet him

you know why

because we met up every weekend since the x'mas 

you know why

because i already used to it

you know why

i like to spend my weekend with him

even just a single movie

even just a lunch or a dinner 

but i just enjoyed the time with him

gosh!

cant even imagine the sadness weekend without him

when i cant see his smile

when i cant hear his voice

do you ever know how suffering am i

i asked myself once & once

why i'll miss him so badly?

no doubt 

even me myself also dunno the reason & the answer

well

i just know he's not part of mine

i just know he's not belong to me

i just know he's not the bf of mine

still

he'll never know

still

he'll just ignore me

*shedding tears*

=LaviGne1007=